I'm a mom. I get overwhelmed. I get frustrated. I get stressed. I get cranky. I get tired. I get hopeless. Sometimes I feel like there are so many things I'm trying to do and keep up with that I feel like I am drowning. Swimming and swimming without rest and getting more and more exhausted. We've all been there. Lots of moms tell me they are in "survival mode" and it's a very real thing.
I've been feeling like this a lot lately. All I can think about is getting out from under the dishes, laundry, diapers, sweeping, mopping, while I still do my daily mom duties like breakfast, lunch, dinner, kitchen cleaning, booger wiping, diaper changing, owie kissing, potty training, business running, email sending, phone calling, appointment making, and everything else that comes up.
I'm drowning in all of those things so much that I've forgotten to see the blessings in my life. I've forgotten to enjoy the sound of small children in my house. I've forgotten to take the time to snuggle with them. I've forgotten so many things.
Yesterday I made a decision. It's time to start remembering. I read a chapter in my scriptures for the first time in a long time last night. I didn't have a life changing spiritual experience. I didn't even have an epiphany of any kind. While I was reading, I noticed that everything Nephi wrote down was praising God and asking for His forgiveness and help in living righteously.
This morning, I stumbled across this picture and it stuck me right in my soul.
I've been drowning, sinking, and not even thinking to just reach up and take his hand. I lost my faith and fell. He's been here the whole time and all I have to do is seek Him and take His hand.
I'm not ashamed to say that I lost faith because it happens. A lot. To everyone. That's why we have a Savior and He will keep forgiving us and reaching for us.
I've been feeling like this a lot lately. All I can think about is getting out from under the dishes, laundry, diapers, sweeping, mopping, while I still do my daily mom duties like breakfast, lunch, dinner, kitchen cleaning, booger wiping, diaper changing, owie kissing, potty training, business running, email sending, phone calling, appointment making, and everything else that comes up.
I'm drowning in all of those things so much that I've forgotten to see the blessings in my life. I've forgotten to enjoy the sound of small children in my house. I've forgotten to take the time to snuggle with them. I've forgotten so many things.
Yesterday I made a decision. It's time to start remembering. I read a chapter in my scriptures for the first time in a long time last night. I didn't have a life changing spiritual experience. I didn't even have an epiphany of any kind. While I was reading, I noticed that everything Nephi wrote down was praising God and asking for His forgiveness and help in living righteously.
This morning, I stumbled across this picture and it stuck me right in my soul.
I'm not ashamed to say that I lost faith because it happens. A lot. To everyone. That's why we have a Savior and He will keep forgiving us and reaching for us.
Matthew 14
30 But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.
